Hello you there, reading my blog!
So far, I have been enjoying blogging, for various reasons. Not so much yesterday though, when I took a long time to write my blog, got lost in various dot point lists, long (slightly Germanic sounding) sentences and worries that it all did not make a lot of sense, that I don’t really have anything useful to say and that people are going to realise that I am just making things up as I go along.
I then remembered that #blogjune is not just me sitting in a room talking to myself, but a conversation we are having with each other via our blogs. So I have finally taken the time to subscribe to a few more blogs, read a lot of posts, all in search of inspiration of what to write about next. I found Karen’s blog post on the imposter syndrome (and very funny bitstrip!), and remembered that last year that was one of the topics that various bloggers picked up and wrote about (for example Sam, Kate or Kathryn). If you are not sure what the imposter syndrome is, you can find a definition here or read an article about it on The Conversation.
Like everyone else, I felt and feel like a fraud from time to time:
- At the moment (most definitely) I feel like a fraud when teaching – what were they thinking giving me a 3rd year unit?
- From time to time imposter syndrome hits me when working on my PhD. My parents and family are from a deeply working class, blue collar background so maybe that has something to do with it. I still remember my aunt’s reaction when she found out I was going to uni for my first degree – “but we don’t do that sort of thing in our family…”. (but, others were more encouraging – you know who you are 🙂
- When I was a new mum I took a while bonding with my first son, and had the constant feeling that someone had just given me a baby to look after for a while. The baby was cute, but it felt like the whole thing had nothing to do with me . The same someone would eventually tap me on the shoulder, tell me that they did not really think I could look after him, and take him away. To be honest, the thought of him being taken from me was partly horrifying, but also partly a relief!
Anyway, there is one video that I immediately think of when I read posts on the topic of the imposter syndrome. It is absolutely fantastic, funny, very honest, and and I am sure will resonate as deeply with you as it did with me, if you ever felt like a fraud that is: